Thus I Quit My Life Today (an old man talks to his youth)

It's a long way down into this river,
But who is he to have the last feat?
I'm an old man now
Craving one last passionate heartbeat!

Too often I wonder how
He was so brilliant
With all of those things
He could do
But they say that was me
As they point at me saying,
"Good friend, that was YOU!"

Yet I believe they are wrong
Certain his mistakes
Were bigger ones
Than I could make
But what's more, the dance
Of his existential song
I only wish I could imitate!

No, time divides us infinitely
So I' m barely myself it seems,
He lived so much he's lucky not to have died
And for me? My life's a dream!;
Where birds must keep their appetite
As bread crumbs are my memories
As life is sitting on a bench
And feeding them, -my ecstasy!

No, the day has come where
Too long I have wondered
If there is any meaning left
For me in the summer
Flowers bloom, the world and the
sky are blue
And all of life is doing things
I once used to do

Flashback after flashback
Has sent me reeling,
This is my woe
I'm too weary for appealing.

I want to trade in these
Final dragging days
For a few quick moments
More worthy of my praise
To have made it this far is enough,
I'm amazed!

now somewhere in me
Against me he plays
His beautiful song
His meditation is a deep well of assurance
Reaching into itself for me
Beneath me in glimmering currents

So finally I must end this delay
And like a child to the one's ahead; "make way!"
-Thus I quit my life today.